Leap of Faith

I have been such a bad blogger as of late. I'd like to blame my busy schedule, my hectic life, and all the running around I do. But let's be honest, Pinterest has taken over my internet time. Seriously, love it. So many of the best ideas rolled up into one convenient place. I've found amazing blogs, amazing crafts, delicious recipes, clothes, jewelry; you name it, it's there. You should at least check it out.

But anyway. Life really is happening. All around me. Since the last time I blogged I turned 24. Exciting. That means in another 9 months, I'll be the big 2-5! Hello, quarter-life crisis. This really has me thinking about where I'm at in life and what I want from life. But moreso, it has me thinking about what in the world I'm doing about those things! I want to travel, I want to settle down, I want to start a family, I want to get my LPCC license, I want to start my own mental health agency in Appalachia, and I want to make all these dreams a reality. But what in the world am I really doing with my time?

I am working. I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off most days. I am wearing myself out in a job that I enjoy, but am not really passionate about. I love Lindsey Wilson College will all my heart and I love my students, but this is not what I want to do with the rest of my life. So, there's that. I am missing my family so much since I moved away. But that's part of life. Otherwise, I am really enjoying my new apartment--even if its walls are still bare and I can hardly keep it clean most weeks. I am helping plan baby showers and wedding showers and bachelorette parties for my good friends, all the while wishing that it could be me in their shoes. And I know I will get my day, someday, but right now it all seems very far away.

At this point, I'm just trying to get my head straight on my shoulders; get the nerve to take a few leaps of faith into the unknown; and I'm praying daily that God will give me the discernment to make the right choices in this life and follow His will. I know that all these dreams wouldn't be in this great big ole heart of mine if God didn't have a plan for them. At this point, I'm trying to take it one step at a time and go from there. It's the best I can do, right?

For today, my one step is to do my job well throughout the next 3 hours. Then head home to the best family a girl could ask for, curl up next to my nephew for the night, and know that when I wake up the next morning and for the next two mornings my days will be filled with amazing friends & family. On Sunday I get to celebrate the coming of my Godson, Kyler Mason. I'm baking a cake for the baby shower throughout the weekend. It's going to be a project, but well worth it for our little miracle. I will get to cuddle my nephew, Cole, and my Goddaughter, Kyndal Reese. All will be as it should be.

Tomorrow, I'll take another baby step, I'm just not sure what direction that will be in....